Little Old Me!
Ok, so I keep getting told that I should develop my writing, apparently I’m not bad at it, and it’s good for my recovery. Then I ran out of pages in my diary, where I’ve been pouring my thoughts out for the last few months. So here I go…
I am a heroin addict. I have used no ‘illicit substances’ now for what will be 11 weeks tomorrow, the 21st May 2015. Go me! Except I had a year clean before I went and messed it up again and had to start all over again. It’s very frustrating but it’s all a learning experience; you pick yourself up, you take your lessons from it, you move on better armed than before.
So last time I was doing volunteer work with addicts. I worked really hard and gained loads of qualifications. So I’m building on that now. I want to run Smart Recovery groups, so I’m doing the training for that. I’m going to life coaching sessions. All in all, I’m taking a long, hard look at who I am, who I want to be, and how to bridge the gap between the two. I’m getting there.
So this is gonna take over from my diary so I can deal with my crap. Journalling is important for reflecting on our feelings & experiences; that way we can turn even the most humiliating, shaming tantrum, that a 2 year old wanting sweets in the supermarket would be proud of, into an insight into our deepest thoughts and irrational beliefs and come out the other side a more self aware, emotionally mature individual…. I’m working on it!
Also, I am quite interested by the idea of writing about subjects that might be on my mind; politics, recovery practises, films, music, whatever! This is how I plan to achieve that “development” of my writing that everyone keeps on about.
We’ll see what happens anyway. I’ve just read this back and I’m left wondering, why does everything I write end up so long?? Maybe that’s something I can ponder in one of my upcoming essays (articles?)